THE WHITE SPARROW - (A Prose Poetry)

 THE WHITE SPARROW

Note: This is my first exploration in writing a prose poetry, a free-style writing that comprises of both poetic rhythm as well as short story instilled in it. I know it's quite long, so please go ahead with reading sparing sometime. Please make sure you read at-once to get actual essence and joy. Will try making better and short in upcoming ones. Happy Reading :) 

It seemed I'd come too far, from the dale where I used to dwell.

A beautiful city there, lots of people and people all over, 

Lots of buses and vehicles all over, lots of Rabble and horns all over.

The Sun had almost set, yet just lots of lights and lights all over.

It seemed I'd come too far, and I knew to see what's next, 

I need some rest. Could'nt find any tree-hole there;

Decided to pass just a night, 

Sure tommorow has got something alright.

Went along with the crowd.

Didn't think for any reason, Didn't think for any direction.

Just kept moving & moving with crowd.

It seemed all okay, seemed that was another dimension

"Maybe my eyes were too weak to see, maybe I'll learn to see better

And maybe that helps me to fly better", that was all on my mind.

Had some milk, found some empty space that I could call as 'Home'.

"My yesterday's trust on tomorrow, got fulfilled by today",

That made me happy, happy I fell asleep.

Promised myself gonna learn fly better; Promised in my dreams.

I knew by all corners of my heart, that's why mumma dada bid goodbye

from the dale where I used to dwell.

Day by Day, everything seemed okay, much okay;

Learning, smiling, sleeping, what else, thus okay.

I couldn't want anymore, but everything else,

everyone else always wanted something from me.

Seemed they've been waiting, passing time counting.

Nights changed mornings had come, yet no difference.

Then I noticed, there was no life. Humans everywhere, but just no life.

And that's when I started noticing everything.

I noticed the crowd that I moved with, was always moving in same pattern;

Dress alike, do hair alike, some same sneakers, some-something.

Heard a voice that said, 

"There's standard for all here based on which you'll be judged;

So better be upto such, Else gotta suffer too much".

So I looked at myself,

"You're just a fool! A big fool;

Just then I told ya, we don't look at ourselves, neither think for themselves,

we just gotta judge, just point out corner & judge! As simple as that".

The voice laughed again.

"But who said that's right?; Who said this is wrong?; Who forms all this?",

"That nd all is unknown, if you think too much then dare to be alone"

"Alone?",  

"Yes alone, prepare yourself to be alone!

Just be like that or prepare yourself to be alone,

Coz that's how you gotta live, you gotta live!"

The other day shared my biscuit, mumma always taught me

And all again, the voice said, " You're just another fool ya,

You have some, just some yourself ya, don't think for others ya,

What if they're using you? what if you sleep hungry though?

What if they bring someone too? Just see yourself, feed yourself,

Coz that's how you gotta live, you gotta live!"

With all these dilemma, was just staring at the walls;

"Maybe I didn't know to live; Maybe I'm the real fool uphere"

Suddenly a huge clatter was heard, a group of vultures headed,

"We need this place, leave!",

"But, I was the one to come here first---was considering as my home--wait!"

Nothing worked, was just thrown away.

For real surprise, all those voices gone silent.

Nothing said anything and me, even amongst all this I Kept doing what I do,

I kept doing for what I came, kept learning to fly better.

At once, realised those voices never became quiet, just hushed from far;

laughing nd laughing, it said, "Look---hey, you know what? she tried to converse

converse with vultures it seems---hahaaaaaha"

"Yeah, now she's just homeless, that's why already told her

told her to be like everyone else, Alas this happened to her!"

Clouded eyes,  I came that night,

Everything else other than me was moving around me.

I didn't know which kept me up from sleep,

Those bright lights? Echoes of vulture's clutter? Hushes and hums? or just all?

I didn't know which was more red,

My eyes without sleep or the raising sun of the day.

Still looked at the sky, said "I believe!"

Returning from my routine, that day, A magic happened.

A White Sparrow accompanied me.

I didn't give any glance, knew that my eyes were too weak.

Yet, it made me understand,

'Eyes aren't needed to feel the colours'

I liked that.

It just kept coming with me, told that I'm homeless;

Clueless where I'm heading, So Insecure not upto standards;

Got nothings left with, got nothings left more.

"And you still wanna come?"

Didn't say anything, just held my hand in silence, 

just kept walking with me into the unknown.

The world was right there, but we were creating a universe just for us.

Once again life felt so alive again, Once again nights were filled with sleep again.

Coz it was teaching me, 'Eyes aren't needed to feel the colours'.

Kinda getting used to it, kinda started feeling fresh, 

kinda felt needed & heard, kinda just liking it.

Nd that's when tensions arose, I just started welcoming the change;

But it was already hoping for a lifetime with me.

And it knew I cannot stay there forever, 

Someday I had to return to the dale, the place I used to dwell.

Everything started getting entangled, so tangled and scribbled,

yet so beautiful, just so very beautiful.

One day, all of sudden, it just left me, not to hurt me;

My White Sparrow just left me, not to hurt me like others.

In the process of untangling, by the process of understanding,

God it took me so much time, so much time.

Art can't be understood in no-time' ; Poems are meant to be read, 

re-read untill we understand.

And God it took me so much time, so much time.

In the same spot where I was once, 

but now even worse I just stood all alone.

Frustrated, screamed at the sky "What's happening? 

Why this happened to me? Why did I come this far?"

That queer silence of sky, stated it's helpless too.

I never knew, I was this brave to accept my fears;

I never knew, I was this empathetic to understand silence;

I never knew, I was this strong to hold on my heart's belief;

I never knew I had this much love to give, even when I needed the most.

"It's okay, It's okay", the sky said. 

"Few things only you must realise"

The sky smiled again with rain.

And everytime I realised something, the sky smiled with rain.

They Judge, because selt-test is hard;

They might think they put you down, 

but its just a way for them to feel satisfied with their height.

There will be one or other voice, 

Its upto me to take it to heart.

They don't empathize, coz they never experienced kindness;

They don't love, coz they are too scared of pain;

They wear mask, coz once they revealed themselves,

but seems got too bruised.

And maybe they don't realise all this,

maybe no magic had happened in their life still.

Now that I knew, Now that I define myself;

I am this creature, 

made to be kind,

made to empathize,

made to forgive,

made to love,

made to bring smiles,

made to be patient,

made to be good,

made to make them realize 

any such reason, isn't reasonable to become bad.

To become other than who you are.

Now that I realize, I am not one among mass

to become a vulture followed by any injustice.

Instead I'm going to become myself,

"The White Sparrow"

Even after all, yes all!

Soon there came a day, those vultures lined up to me,

asked, "How can you still smile?"

And I just still smiled.

I stopped giving powers to anything that wants to hurt me.

That was possible by choosing eternal kindness, ever!

And then me, The White Sparrow

Can look like only myself.

Can fly like only myself.

Can think like just myself.

Can feel like only myself.

Me, myself and that will be the best version of my creation.

Came to learn fly better;

Returned learning fly best.

Back into the dale, where I used to dwell

For my next journey even far,

Until then, lemme just have some sleep, some sleep.

-S.Sivambika